Is it you? Who left me at my darkest hours or is it you who made me the happiest I've ever been and made me fall head first from the highest highs I've ever reached. My mind is a mess, I stop myself from overthinking to the point I don't think at all, thinking is a chore but it gives a different kind of high. Idk where life is going or is gonna go but I wanna be at peace. The scenery is gonna change, we'll it already did but the new batch of people that came with it were the same old with a few exceptions, this time it could be different. Maybe it'll be maybe it won't. But God knows I desperately need change. I want broken people who break others to validate themselves out of my system, I just can't. It's hard enough working on others while they rip your guts out while you're tryna fix their paper cut. Idk wtf I'm writing anymore

goodnight