Ladt month someone closest reminded me the question i ask myself quite often... What if.... Seriously what if....... 

Most days I miss you as an instant reaction.... When there was opportunity we both were oblivious... we were never serious.... at least not at the same time... and that cost us happiness in this life... we r both crazy.... and now our craziness is pressed under the reality of life.... I miss you slipy.... our sleepy blue ocean song is gonna be forgotten like us....

Just wondering if it would be a better year this time....

Everything is complex, layered in multiple levels. Before it was just sad or angry, now it's 30 different emotions. Nothing is simple. Good old days seem easier but maybe this is the good says worse are to come. Who truly knows. Hope for the best

It's crazy how a little power / authority can drastically change a person's entire personality and attitude towards their peers 

Why is it that you feel left out the most by the people you try to include everywhere. The people you try to make feel special end up making you feel like shit 

It's been a hard journey to drive myself, keep on pushing. I take one step and face 10 kicks. Loans are increasing by day. I just donno how to come out of it. Whats the best way. Life sucks.

Idk what I'm doing

What I'm supposed to do

What is the right course of action

What people to keep around and cut off

was browsing some site and found the jacket I bought for you. Had tough time selling it afterwards. All those things that I bought, all those stupidness that I did for a wedding that did not happen. I knew it wasnt gonna happen. Offcouse I knew. Otherwise I would be shattered. Friends from all over Europe came for the wedding. Instead of a wedding we had  time in pub drinking wine. And even then I didnt get drunk. Those loans I took, and more to cover them. limit of stupidity. Pink white jacket. TTT. live well. live happy.