Most days I miss you as an instant reaction.... When there was opportunity we both were oblivious... we were never serious.... at least not at the same time... and that cost us happiness in this life... we r both crazy.... and now our craziness is pressed under the reality of life.... I miss you slipy.... our sleepy blue ocean song is gonna be forgotten like us....

I dont know what's wrong with my subconscioud mind. I am pretty sure last night I wasnt thinking of u. I had a great time with my life partner and went to sleep in a happy peaceful state. Then u came. You came as you were supposed to come. Leaving states. Leaving everyone to me. You came and you came in todays time. to my home. you are sleeping in my study room. Everyone is ok with it. I am just worried what your father is doing. I see you have graduated. got a great job. but u left everything to come to me as it was planned. And I am overjoyed with the life we are going to live. but somehow i was also concious that years have gone by. its been 7 years since then. and my life has another person in it. and i cant leave that person. i dont know how to tell you that. and i was broken into pieces. i wanna have that life. but i can never enjoy that leaving the person i have now..... I woke up. felt sad. went back to sleep. and the dream continued. finally i was up in the morning. but the feelings exist with me. your smile. your embrance. your witty eyes. our singular dream. life could be that. but it has changed. could i have waited longer? was i selfish? just wanted to be happy. and moreover that i was just disgusted by your family. its somewhat same in my present as well. hope u stay happy. hope we can have a laugh someday together. even as friends. we were friends. the closest kind of. and i miss that friend a lot.

I wanna ring you, tell you how i feel. I wanna hold you like I used to. I wanna see your dramatic eyes up closed. Those big brown eyes, sleepless redness there, yet beautiful. Yet those drama. You want me to kiss you yet wont say. Would just shout out in mixed hindi, english, bengali. And then when I would give up being angry, wanna feel that cute smooch and see you run. Being sleepy is overrated. Isn't it?